Why another blog?

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Finding freedom in the Unshattered Grace of God.

I have been praying so much about starting this blog and have really no idea where all it will lead. I have written blogs in the past, but recently, God started preparing my heart for a new blog. A new perspective. Still a narrative, but from a different angle. I have always tried to be as candid as possible. From the struggles and fears and failures, to the praise-worthy accomplishments and victories, I want you to see it all.

But what about the ugly taboo no one wants to talk about? What about darkness? What about anxiety? What about depression? What about what happens when you are truly and utterly broken? When the pieces are shattered on the floor in every which way and none of it was of your own doing? What about when life hands you back all those pieces and there is no more making sense of it? What about when you are truly and utterly no longer the person you used to be and you have to discover life again from a new perspective?

You cannot retrace your steps, find out where you went wrong, go back and fix things. You can’t blame it on a particular event or choice you decided to walk away from God. You can’t even pinpoint the exact moment your vessel fell to the floor in ruins. In fact, quite the opposite is true. You’ve clung to God with all you’ve got. You’ve asked over and over for answers and the silence is deafening. Nothing seems to change. Nothing seems to get better.

Then what?

As humans, we are kind of weird. We feel the constant need to fix things and the desire to do just the opposite of what we really should be doing. When told to sit still, we fidget. When told no, we want it more. When faced with an impossible challenge, we want even more to accomplish it. When failing, we want to win. Whatever the circumstances, we want the opposite. We succumb to reverse psychology continually.

But God knows that!

Which is why I wanted to start this blog. Not just to share with you all the ways in which I have felt overwhelmed and anxious. Not just to share with you that I have struggles, worries, and fears. God put on my heart the desire to share with you what He has been teaching me in the dark. What kind of relentless pursuit of His grace He has been leading me on. What kind of Creator He is and what kind of Creation I am, and you are, in His eyes.

I am no more qualified to write this than you are, if we are being perfectly transparent. Chances are, you are experiencing the very same things. Many different circumstances, maybe different timing, but that’s ok. This blog isn’t the answer book for all of life’s questions. It’s not even a blog of answers I’ve discovered. It’s more of a narrative of life, change, inconsistencies, challenges, obstacles, but the never-ending theme of Grace.

There have been many blogs before. There have been many devotions written. But this…

This is MY STORY.

So, follow along with me if you’d like and let’s embark on a reckless pursuit of our Creator and His Grace Unshattered!